First day at work


First days are usually supposed to be the most memorable ones, often the most disastrous as well! And despite the fact that I've never ever ever been involved in one such business before, I'd say I did a pretty good job :)

So waitressing...new, challenging, demanding, and more often than not, full of unexpected turn of events. I always look upon each of life's experiences as a road that leads you on to somewhere you're meant to be. Now I already mentioned in my last post that I've taken up this part time job at a restaurant and well, yesterday was my first day.

So the usual, you get up early, wanting to make a good first impression by reaching before time, and thats what I did too and considering I'm paid on hourly basis there was a bit of maths involved as well. So I reach at 7.50 am, 10 minutes before my reporting time. Now, you know how its always like when you're early the manager's late and when you're late the manager's early. Well, something similar happened. The manager arrived only at 10, so I had nothing to do till then. Waiting is hard, and sometimes it really makes you re-consider the decisions that led to this wait. So there I was sitting and wondering if this was the right thing to do, if I'll be able to handle the stress along with all of my academics and eca work. But then I thought of those countless other college going students who're independent, supporting their own education, and then suddenly I longed for that satisfaction of spending your hard earned money! Thats it, I thought, I'll wait.

And that I did, until the manager arrived, handed me my uniform, and cap and explained to me my first job as a waitress, delivering and serving food to the hungry customers at their tables, a no-brainer, I thought, but the sight of a million of them, all giving me those long lingering hopeful stares as I moved around looking for the right table to serve the dishes. The morning time, I realized is the peak hour for business, because thats when all these hard working people go for their jobs and they need energy to keep them going, they need food, oh lots of it and fast! The most challenging thing about this job is the fact that you are the one who's dealing with the customer. If the food's late or its not upto the mark, you're the one who's caught, not the cook or the management, which happened a couple of times and each time it really felt like one of those Lizzie Mcguire moments.



Anyway, as noon approached the crowd became thinner and finally I had time to look around and observe my colleagues. There were mostly men, over 40, two at the cooking area, one at the drinks side, one at the cashier's area and a few putting together the orders. There were however 2 other waitresses like me, Devi and Amy, both young, college going students and very very friendly, I'm glad we hit it off well. Also there was one aunty doing the dishes, one aunty at a managerial post and one aunty working alongside the men in preparing the orders, now she was I believe the eldest of us all, and had this perpetual frown on her face. It was later that Devi told me how that aunty made her cry on her second day itself. Note to self: Stay away from that bundle of nerves.

Anyway, afternoon came and the crowd started thickening again, the lunch hours had begun! I was then, asked to leave the waitressing to Devi and Amy and come behind the counter to help put together the orders, my Job 2, I learnt up a few dishes and starting working on all the orders that included them, it was kinda mechanical but as long as I could help...*shrugs* It was then I suddenly realized that I was actually working right next to that horrible horrible aunty, omg was I tensed, and it mustve been quite obvious because the next thing I know she looked at me and without letting go of that frown said that I was doing a good job, I smiled and eased up a little. That coming from her was like a promotion!

I also made friends with all those men, they all treated me like a kid, helped me when I couldnt figure certain things out, taught me new things and hell, even gave me free drinks! lolz, it was fun, next thing I know the drinks uncle was asking me for my preferences in their menu, and I thought it was a casual conversation until he actually put together all of that and told me that it was my lunch, so I took a break and sat with Devi, had lunch and for a while, life just seemed perfect then, how often had I wanted to do this part time stunt but nothing ever really came about, and although my parents don't really know about this (for once I'm glad they're never interested in reading my blog), I'm sure this can only lead to something good.

So back to Job 1, serving, I felt like a pro now, getting the hang of all the stares and even figuring out ways to carry more dishes at the same time. However, it wasn't long before the manager called me behind the counter again and asked me to stand and observe the cashier, because that was my Job 3, and honestly I was dreading this one, because (a.) I still wasn't used to the menu and the customers' accent and (b.) This one dealt with money and I didn't wanna screw up!

But yeah, I'd like to say this, I totally impressed myself by catching up with everything so fast, how to take an order, how to lure them into buying more, how to give them the pager no. so they can wait in queue, how to pass a message to the staff working inside in case the customer has a special preference, how to insert the money into the machine and within minutes I felt like a pro again...even the manager came and congratulated me on picking up so fast. It was really fun being the cashier, and for some reason they just asked me to go on doing that so it was Job3 for most of the day. The young customers were the most entertaining however, they were confused, changed their order a hundred times and they flirted! yes they did! hahah...and a few families who hadn't seen me earlier asked me if I was new and I told them proudly that it was my first day to which they gasped and said I was doing really well ! :)

Soon it struck 4 pm, and my shift was over.

I soo totally love this job, and although I'm glad its only once a week because soon after I reached back to my hostel, I totally felt the repercussions of standing for the whole day, a terrible ache in my heels and arms, but I still look forward to the next Sunday and another day at work!




Bad Results?


This was a new feeling. Having been an A-list student all my life at school, it suddenly felt unnatural for me to be getting mediocre grades at college, and "unnatural" felt like an understatement. I was devastated. The results for the 3rd semester were revealed yesterday. I was excieted since my exams had gone well, really really well. I was expecting a GPA above 4 in the least (the maximum being 5). The past 2 semesters had landed me at a measly 3.82 and that's just not "respectable" in my opinion. This time, I thought I'd finally hit the 4 and so much depended on that.

Considering I always find myself at home when the results come out, this time, I'd decided I'll give mom dad a surprise by the checking the results myself first, the usual procedure mostly being me raising the entire house to a state of chaos by declaring that the results are out and then the 3 of us gathering around my PC with fingers-crossed and waiting for the computer-generated verdict for my future.

The last 2 times it had been a disaster, with me eventually having to withdraw myself from the PC with a mournful look on my face and my parents despite feeling mad at me for the bad grades, having to smile and hug me and say that things'll be all right, and that all I had to do was work harder. But this attitude never lasts long. The moment they start noticing that you're over the whole death phase, and are beginning to get into the normal fun routine, they'll make sure to ruin it for you every single chance they get by reminding you of the results.

But yesterday? Nah...I'd planned it to be wayy different. With me checking up my super-cool grades before-hand, making a bit of a scene at first and then cherishing the proud look on mom dad's faces when I reveal the grades. But like everything else, it didnt happen the way I'd planned. Instead, here I am, neck-deep in guilt and mostly anger. Guilt because so far I haven't told them that the results are out and my CGPA has dropped to a disturbing 3.5, and anger because this was not supposed to happen. I know I'd worked really really hard this sem, and the exams had been so good. I'd never been this confident of my result! So then, how good is good? What does it really take to get to the top?

Urgh! The grades aren't as much of a trouble as the phase that mom dad'll go through once it's brought to their notice. I hate them feeling that all this money their spending on me is going to waste, or worse that I don't realize the opportunities coming my way and am just another good girl spoilt by the college culture, and nothing nothing I say in my defence would change that!
Man! Times are hard...

No to love


All right here's the situation. There's someone you know who really really likes you, has known you for all his life, is always there for you when you need him and has hardly ever missed a chance to let you know how much he cares...and yet, you never get yourself to accept this as something more than friendship. You may have your own reasons but nothing that isn't overpowered by his love...so why?

Fine I'm bad at this third person analysis...
Yesterday I sat and tried to sort myself out...why was it that I'd always try to push him away despite everything that he'd done for me? He is one of my closest friend, and nothing I may use to justify my behavior towards him, can beat his sincerity towards our relation.

It wasn't long before I knew...It was sudden but it all became clear. There were 2 reasons.

We all do realize that all of the fun in achieving something lies in the chase, and not in the achievement. What I mean is, and I am speaking on behalf of both guys and girls here, it's always fun liking, stalking, fantacizing, impressing the opposite sex, but once you know that the person's feelings are in your favor, you lose interest, the charm's over and you no longer see the thrill in impressing the person anymore. In short, unless it's an absolute rare case of true love, the feelings tend to fade away once the impression has been made. And this stands as my reason number one. What if, I give in to what I've been trying to put away for so long, what if I do give our relationship a shot? And then what happens if he loses interest? It's always fun playing hard to get cuz you're sure that things'll come around and you'll still get to keep your dignity.

And secondly, I admit I am a little high maintenence, not all fanatic like Monica in friends, but I do have my share of hopes and expectations and although I never express my disappointments openly, it does break my heart when the person doesn't live up to what I'd gauged of him. This may be something small like me expecting him to realize that my day didn't go well over an msn chat, without me having to tell him anything. I'm ready to put my heart and soul into a relation and I expect kind of the same from the other end. He has never disappointed me as a friend, but with our relationship upgrading, so will my hopes...what if he's not able to keep up...It'll only hurt both of us if one of us is not happy...

Keyword: Risk
I can't know anything for sure unless I try right?
I guess I'll know when I'm ready to...

x( read:dead


Major student-life crisis!


Friends?
Love?

No!!

It's why we're students in the first place..! Studies!




I'm facing a horrible NEGTWIP attack right now (for those lost read this). Okay it kinda all started when yesterday I realized I was only 16 days away from exams and well, a million light-years away from my preparations. To top it all, I have a few pending reports and submissions and a big test due for next week. Also, not ignoring the fact that I'm involved in one of the most active extra-curricular clubs on campus, it well, lives up to its status, and keeps me active! The last time I slept peacefully for more than 5 hours at a stretch must've been like...oh wait, i don't remember!




Okay, now before you form this really messed-up-disorganized-sloth-like-lazy-bumpkin image of mine, let me tell you that I'm one of the most well-organised people among my friends. I usually have months planned in advance in my scheduler, and HENCE the above realization FREAKED ME OUT!!! (read: is freaking me out!)

Starting tomorrow, I have only 15 days left, and 6 subjects to prepare for my exams which are beautifully scheduled so as to not allow any prep time in between!

Even if I divide the 2 given quantities I still don't have enough time to allow myself a thorough revision. Ahh...another semester gone, another screwed-up GPA...another amusement over why I didn't achieve better grades when I clearly could and yet another resolution to do better next time..

Anyway, Its past midnight, and I reached my room 2o min ago from another ECA meeting, and another day full of fruitless attempts at studying! I feel dizzy from all the sleeplessness...Maybe I'll figure this out tom, maybe I'll see divine light in my dream guiding me through this evil world full of torturing electives and inhuman GPA systems into a land of peace and love and mango milkshakes..




Speaking of shakes, I recently tried this new drink called "dragon-fruit ice-blended"...it's amazing!! and apparently real good for your eyes...do check it out if you get a chance! :) Meanwhile, I'll get back to sulking :\


The stranger



When someone just walks into your life, enters your mind, your habits, your conversations, doesn't it feel like another one of those tricks that destiny plays on you?


I saw him last month. Seated at the corner-most table at the cafe, he looked like a bundle of gravity, and maybe more..Now I'm not like one of those people who look and forget, I remember, if perhaps the situation penetrates my sphere of interest, I remember, and I do my research well.

And I did, a week of casual stalking and I knew quite a lot about him..haha..Okay now, I'm not the only freak who does that okay? Remember the last time you checked out people on the internet, it is a convenient means, at our disposal so why not use it if it helps ;) Anyway, I realized he was from a different country, a different background, a totally different mindset but being friends doesn't really take all that into account does it? I befriended him.

And as fate had it, suddenly those coincidental-bumping-into-each-other meetings rose up in number and now, it's a slightly different story!

This semester has been such a new journey for me, it revealed to me so much about my own self, and so much about life in general.

Ever tried talking to a stranger for no reason?
Try it sometime!
Yes, there'll be awkward moments, yes, you might even be a subject of ridicule for that person after you leave but you never know, your next closest friend might just be that random girl you saw at the cafe the other day and though you were both without company, you just felt too "awkward" to make a move.


Sometimes, it helps if you "don't think" before doing something your heart asks you to do, just go for it, take a chance! talk to that stranger today! :)